I feel so ill.
I never want to leave my bed, just waste away. I’ve eaten nothing today. nausea is rolling around in my stomach reminiscent of my actions last night. I haven’t moved from this spot today, apart from when I left his house trying to be composed and not throw myself in front of a vehicle. I got home and cried. a lot. I don’t know why all of a sudden I feel so awfully destructive again. like I just want to rot away into a pile of bones and make them all watch me. I don’t know why I’m feeling like this. I sliced up my arms for the first time since before I started taking my medication. the pain feels amazing.
I’ve lost my appetite entirely. at least one good thing comes from this situation.
