I’m so embarrassed, humiliated, horrified.
I had a breakdown at school today, I was absolutely hysterical. it just came out of nowhere, it’s never happened before. the most intimidating teacher in the whole of the school confronted me about it and asked if I had depression. I oh so stupidly said ‘yeah’. the first person I’ve ever told and it had to be a teacher I despise. I feel so open and embarrassed and exposed. no one was meant to know and I was just so wrapped up in the moment that I told her. fuck. I could kill myself. I’m so embarrassed. she gave me a form to give my doctor to give me special provisions for exams and stuff. why the fuck did I tell her. now it’s being treated as some ‘professional’ thing that needs forms filled out and shit. I’m such a fucking idiot. I hate myself so much.
